"No. I mean... I don't know. It's just weird. You always show up, but I've never seen you talking to anyone else. It's been ten years and you're still just... here with me. Like, I'd expect you to be out doing something, living somewhere, by now. But... you're still right here, like always, only showing up when you want to."
Really, it's all rambling and some frustration. He's never known what Auron wants to be to him and it's frustrating. It's like still being alone, just with a shadow that hovers behind you from time to time to confirm you're still alive.
He's never been able to tell if Auron is permanent or not and it makes him just as frustrating as his parents had been. It's probably why he's tried to seem distant from him as he had with his dad and his mom as he grew up. It's unconvincing, it always was, but it's the best he can do given his circumstances.
In the end, he doesn't want Auron to leave. He doesn't want to be alone. He just wants something solid from him for once.
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Really, it's all rambling and some frustration. He's never known what Auron wants to be to him and it's frustrating. It's like still being alone, just with a shadow that hovers behind you from time to time to confirm you're still alive.
He's never been able to tell if Auron is permanent or not and it makes him just as frustrating as his parents had been. It's probably why he's tried to seem distant from him as he had with his dad and his mom as he grew up. It's unconvincing, it always was, but it's the best he can do given his circumstances.
In the end, he doesn't want Auron to leave. He doesn't want to be alone. He just wants something solid from him for once.